drama see what it does

when people think of drama they think of the class in high school but really there's lots of types of drama. theres family drama, friend drama, love drama, and drama you dare not speak to others but not i choose to speak about all that drama. if you talk shit then shits gonna be talked about you. theres no such thing as good gossip it only hurts you. trust me when i say this stuff ive gone through so much abuse mentally and emotionally and physically that its a surprize im mentally scared for life. well maybe just a little im gonna tell all of my pain and suffering right now. ive cut myself, been sexually abused, assaulted, have a record, almost sent to crosswinds and juvy 3 times, ive tried to kill myself like 5 times in 1 yr and 3 times in the last yr, i almost dropped out off school more then once, ive gotten my heart broken too many times to even count, in the last 3 yrs ive lost about 9 loved ones, ive been physcially abused, virbally abused and cut myself for it and tried to kill myself for it, i try to hide my pain through laughing and trying to have fun, i am bi and get bulled serval times a day for it, i am constantly talked behide my back at school, i do drink sometimes, ive done drugs in the past, ive hurt the ones close to me all the time, i can never get close to someone and when i do i get my heart broken, im mostly talk, im a closed door when meeting new people, and im scared one day when all this comes out that ill be out of my comfort zone and lost from it for good or that ill get my heart broken again and i cant go through that not again last time it happened i lost it and cut myself sevral times and almost killed myself and since its already out i dont want any drama so ill just go back to being the me no one knows and stick to that so i hope you enjoyed getting a glimpse into my inter self cuz that doesnt come out that much and all this is cuz of drama friend drama, love drama, family drama, and drama you dare not speak about and heres the drama you dared not to speak about but guess what?

i just did and its out in the open for good