smile instead of cry

I told you I was okay, and hidden all my pain. i'm tired of all te lies, deep inside im dieing.So why do i always smile and try to hide my tears, when you can always see all my biggest fears. I try to hide my eyes becasue there the gateway to my soul. But i trust you with my heart becasue you are my other half, my best friend, so please dont go and leave me all alone becasue i do not know how i will react