I prefer giving you up

i may have thought about it once and twice
never considered how brutal was the price
but corenering my heart in a game of cats and mice
it was the most unfortunate fate i'd choose

sometimes i felt like just giving up my life
considering the choices i had to make all the time
was it daring of me to look beneath my line of sight
i was seaking individuality of my soul

If love was the answer like everyone claims
why did you feel the need to play those games
why did protecting me require those chains
you just made it easier for me to let you go

i may have loved you sometime in the past
but nearing the end the emotions didnt feel as vast
i wouldn't deny it was beautiful when it had last
but holding on any further would've been just a show

It's not now, it's not ever, I wouldn't change my mind
darling this isn't a quest i'm looking forward to find
and if loving you was a battle, I wasn't ready to fight
Then I prefer giving up than having to fight and lose