Why do I love him. poem/song

ive got a crazy lover but
he aint into the crime.
i've sailed through that heart ache
but he's looking for a sign
he's opening and opened up the
gender of his kind
I know Im not against that but somehow
it makes me cry.

My pillows in the prison hole
for killing self esteme
ive hated saying I love you
and hearing im a prick
no one to say it back to me
the reply button repeats daily
hearts have broken meaning I have
My depressions growing grown and will grow
your obsessions some one esle.
some one else