My Final Lamentation

Many thoughts I have thrown
your way. Hoping that you have held
my memory close, yet, I know I have
left your reveries and your
world for the rest of eternity.
Many tears have been torn from my eyes,
terrified of my time without you. Taken
from my tight grip by foes and
forces I do not know and I do not understand.
My heart hammered by the
heavy emotions you heaved upon me.
My mind mauled by the mere mention
of your great name knowing that I
shall never let it leave my
lips as lovingly as I once did.
I miss you yet, I know I shall never
know of your presence again.
Many grieving words written
in weeping poems and lengthy
lamentations trying to rid my
memory of you. Yet, you prance
and play with my emotions
in the background of my mind.
You tried to tell me and now I know..
Yes I know... This is all my fault
and my fault alone.
My actions have pushed you far away
and caused my soul to flee with the
flock of tears running from my eyes.
My mind trembling like the rest of my
weak body, Like my shaky hand
holding the knife that will
do what words can not.
I rightly realize that I shall remain alone
forever.. and ever still...
For I have lost my mind
I have lost my soul
I have lost my heart
and I have lost even more.
And now, I have no reason
to delay the next life's start
and enter a world apart..