12/7/2010

Life not that bad. it can get better.
i hope what they say is right.
i feel sick to my stomach. i feel
dirty and no matter how hard
i try i cant get clean. i'm in pain all
over. my mind burns and body hurts.
why i ask myself. am i a bad person.
is this my punishment. sometimes
i want it to be over forever. so i dont ever
have to be hurt agine. to never feel
the way i do agine. but then i rember
those sweet loveing blue eyes. that
let me know that im leading him.
that he looks up to me and that he
needs me as a big sister.