Myself?

It's 2:35 A.m. and I can't sleep with this on my mind
every night I search for what I will never find
even in my dreams It will never be found
but you wouldn't know,you're never around
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you just crushed my head!
with these weights of lead!
But you never heard what I said!
because your never at the homestead!
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thank you for my life but you can have it back
just one more problem for you to lack
goodbye for now,I'll disappear into this black
I will fall to pieces,slip into the cracks
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you just crushed my head!
with these weights of lead!
But you never heard what I said!
because your never at the homestead