Never Free
Why am I so cold?
Why can't I say the simple words?
Why did I go?
Why did you walk away?
Why do I still think about you every day?
Why are you in my head?
Speaking to me all the time.
Whispering up the stairs; down the hall
You make me rhyme, but not everytime
Why can't I forget you?
I've forgotten everyone else
But when I think of you; everything comes running back
And it doesn't take much
Just a simple word and I think of everything I've ever held dear
And there you are
No matter what
Though years have past since we've parted ways; I still remember the day
I wanted to cry, I almost did
Then you walked away, making sure I knew
But the thing is, you never did
You thought you did, but you were wrong
I didn't hate you
I never did
It was always love; there I said it
But I hid it well; I was afraid
I didn't want the pain
So I hurt you; I know I did
I saw it in your eyes and the way you were
How cold you got, how completely tense
But I was scared, so I pretended I didn't care
And I said things I didn't mean
I loved your name for me
I lied about it; I'm sorry you heard
I know that later you thought it was only then
Because I tried; I tried to show you
And I know you saw, but you didn't see
I cared for you all a long
And I know you saw a time for revenge
I don't blame you, I didn't then
I didn't care, even when they warned me
I just wanted you to know I cared
And you did, you just thought it was late
And I know you had fun playing with me and thinking you won
But all I know is I'm glad I tried
Through all the tears and the lies
We both were victims and we both abused
But I still care about you, I wish you knew
All I wish for now is that I could let you go from my heart
But still you cling, despite them all
Why can't you just let me go?
Haven't we hurt each other enough?
Just let me go; I know you're never coming back
And I'm tired of trying to explain that to my heart
It just doesn't seem to understand
But I'd like to be released now
So hand me the key
But that seems to be the problem
I know I'll never set myself free
Why can't I say the simple words?
Why did I go?
Why did you walk away?
Why do I still think about you every day?
Why are you in my head?
Speaking to me all the time.
Whispering up the stairs; down the hall
You make me rhyme, but not everytime
Why can't I forget you?
I've forgotten everyone else
But when I think of you; everything comes running back
And it doesn't take much
Just a simple word and I think of everything I've ever held dear
And there you are
No matter what
Though years have past since we've parted ways; I still remember the day
I wanted to cry, I almost did
Then you walked away, making sure I knew
But the thing is, you never did
You thought you did, but you were wrong
I didn't hate you
I never did
It was always love; there I said it
But I hid it well; I was afraid
I didn't want the pain
So I hurt you; I know I did
I saw it in your eyes and the way you were
How cold you got, how completely tense
But I was scared, so I pretended I didn't care
And I said things I didn't mean
I loved your name for me
I lied about it; I'm sorry you heard
I know that later you thought it was only then
Because I tried; I tried to show you
And I know you saw, but you didn't see
I cared for you all a long
And I know you saw a time for revenge
I don't blame you, I didn't then
I didn't care, even when they warned me
I just wanted you to know I cared
And you did, you just thought it was late
And I know you had fun playing with me and thinking you won
But all I know is I'm glad I tried
Through all the tears and the lies
We both were victims and we both abused
But I still care about you, I wish you knew
All I wish for now is that I could let you go from my heart
But still you cling, despite them all
Why can't you just let me go?
Haven't we hurt each other enough?
Just let me go; I know you're never coming back
And I'm tired of trying to explain that to my heart
It just doesn't seem to understand
But I'd like to be released now
So hand me the key
But that seems to be the problem
I know I'll never set myself free