Sometimes I Wonder
You meant the world to me
You used to brighten up my day
With your antics, your jokes
And your breath-taking smile
You were the only one
Who was able to break my shield of pain
And make me laugh
When no one else knew how
But tell me now,
What happened?
Those long days of thinking about you
Ended shortly after that time
When my mind was lost
In the tricks that were being played on me
Soon those tricks grew larger
And my hope had run its course
Letting go of you
Was the hardest part of all of this
But the only thing that seemed right
Tell me now,
What happened?
I gave up on myself
Which led me to give up on you
Because I knew things would never be the same anymore
It was so hard to see you go
But a relief to know
That you weren't a worry in my mind anymore
But tell me now
What happened?
A long time has passed
The memory of you barely exists
But the regret in my heart still tears me apart
Sometimes I wonder
What happened between us
Why I threw everything away
And tried to erase you from my life
But I’ll tell you now,
I’ll tell you what I finally realized
After all this time of fear and regret,
You were never mine to begin with.
You used to brighten up my day
With your antics, your jokes
And your breath-taking smile
You were the only one
Who was able to break my shield of pain
And make me laugh
When no one else knew how
But tell me now,
What happened?
Those long days of thinking about you
Ended shortly after that time
When my mind was lost
In the tricks that were being played on me
Soon those tricks grew larger
And my hope had run its course
Letting go of you
Was the hardest part of all of this
But the only thing that seemed right
Tell me now,
What happened?
I gave up on myself
Which led me to give up on you
Because I knew things would never be the same anymore
It was so hard to see you go
But a relief to know
That you weren't a worry in my mind anymore
But tell me now
What happened?
A long time has passed
The memory of you barely exists
But the regret in my heart still tears me apart
Sometimes I wonder
What happened between us
Why I threw everything away
And tried to erase you from my life
But I’ll tell you now,
I’ll tell you what I finally realized
After all this time of fear and regret,
You were never mine to begin with.