I am not alone

Would you see me as me. 
Or the person you see. 
I am fat.
But my heart is obese. 
Sleep is the thing I need. 
People look at me and dissaproveing ways.
Music helps me quit thinking.
But getting hurt by you breaks me.
Words are like bullets. 
You shoot me till I am down.
Death will except me one day.
And will you care?
Will you laugh? 
But I do have a reaon to live. 
And you are not the reason to live.
God put me on this earth to save people, from those dark thoughts.
The ones that creep into my mind every once in a while. 
I say hello to the people that are quiet. 
I said goodnight to an old friend. 
Cancer has entered my family. 
And left me weeping of the death it made. 
I was put on this earth to save lifes.
If you think I am alone.
I am not.
If you think I am weird 
I accept the fact that I am random.
I can twist those words you shoot at me with hatred. 
But will you remember me?