Down A Strange Road

So hopefully I'll say this right,
Use all the right words...like I should've that night,
You're probably half way across Boston,
Already, at fifteen, you know all the fucked up things I've done,

I hate that I depend on you so much,
I hate that your loyalty and pain was never enough,
No one saw,
No one bothered to,
I hate that no one seemed to care enough for you,

Even my friends could tell I was something else,
But I wouldn't listen because in my head I saw no one else,
The air is so cold right now,
How could I never thank you for looking at me and letting me know how,
How knowing everything could mean nothing?
I begged and cried and pleaded for something,
But maybe it was nothing...

Now, before you throw me away,
I just want to say that I won't enjoy my time in Hell,
But I'll do it anyway,
I don't compare with people who have actually gone through shit in their lives,
So I needed a reason to complain,

I never knew it would be this hard to keep secrets,
I used to do it all the time,
But on your way out,
You taught me well,
I remember every line,

Too bad I can't be like you,
You know where you're going,
I'm at a dead end,
But I'm getting out, and I won't leave you alone unless you want me to,

I guess that's all I have to say,
I mean, you know,
I love you