As i stare at

As i stare at,
The edge,
Of this bloody,
Steel,

Cold to the touch,
Yet so warm when inserted deep into skin,

I feel ashamed,
Of my self imposed,
destruction,

I yearn to not have to feel all this,
Fucking shit anymore,
I have tried,

To close all light,
But i haven't done it,
Right,
I can't even commit suicide the right way,

I for now am satisfied,
With this cold,
Bloody,
Steel being inserted into my skin.