Truly Yours

I love you; I hate you
You're very much a part of me
The way I move, talk, and think

I dream about you when I close my eyes
And when the world goes quiet; I can almost feel you pressed up against my skin
I try to run, but I hear your whispers to me carried on the wind

I love you so, but I've given you up
The price to high for the reward
But then again, what reward?
There never was one
You only hurt and took
You never gave
Why do you dog me so?
The best of me was you
And I hate you for it

Night after night I cried in pain
Agony coursing through my veins; but you never cared, not once
And I gave you my everything; my very soul resting in your hands
But it never ended; you always left me there, trapped in my own darkness
How could you?
Why was it never enough?
Did I not bleed enough?
Suffer? Cry?

I wanted it over so much
And now it is and I still feel...
I belong to you; always, forever, truly yours
But somethings can never be
We both may scream and cry, but nothing can alter the past
And it's too late for us; there's too much pain now, too many tears

I still cry sometimes
I still miss you
Though some don't see it; don't know how I could have given you up
But they don't know, they don't see
That, sometimes, the cost is too high, the price too much
And the human soul can only suffer so much