Hurt Myself

I haven’t lived a life of pain
My family isn’t perfect but I am loved
No-one touched me against my will
So I don’t understand why I want to hurt myself?

When I was younger it was ‘cool’
So I’m older now
But it’s still there
This need to hurt myself.

Am I an addict?
Needing the pain?
Can’t be ‘cause I try not to give in
And hurt myself.

It’s the first place I go when I’m upset
Not chocolate or a hug from a friend
Nor a pillow full of tears
Just a blade and a desire to hurt myself.

Should I see my doctor?
Tell him I think I’ve gone mad.
I’m a danger
And I want to hurt myself.

So I’ve not lived a life of pain
I’m loved and not abused
But I still want to hurt myself.
Go figure...even normal people can be crazy.