Motivation and Inspiration

My eyes are tired
And I'm craving my sleep
But I fucked up again
So say so long to my dreams.
I waste all my time
And say I don't care
But it's really just fear
Of what I might find.
I know I'm to blame
And it's hurting me bad
And no one can save me
But I need it so bad;
I need the motivation
To reclaim my life,
I need some inspiration
And to pursue it this time
But last time that happened
I was disappointed again
The grass wasn't greener
And I'm tired of the stress.
But I know it can't get better
And what I have left will just die
If I don't fix this problem
And reclaim my life.