I can hear you.

We were close friends
I think
You believe it was me
But I know it was you

You pushed me too hard
Young, naive
Nothing should've ever happened
I can't believe I said yes

Society told us it was wrong
I knew it was
Why did I cross my line?
It was you

Your boundaries were far and wide
But for me and you?
They shrunk, I wouldn't have agreed to that for anyone
But 4 years is just too much

A nasty break
That was me, I gladly admit
Now you talk about me
You write about me

I can hear you
Did you know?
I can see you
I'm standing right here.

You're under the impression
That I regret the end
Perhaps you're submitting to delusion
What I regret most is the start

If I'd never met you
Nothing would've started
I wouldn't be here
Hitting my head against a door

You would've never pushed me
You would've never done this
Or that
You wouldn't have hurt me

Biting words, when I least needed them
From the person
I despised most
In that instant
In that moment.

Now.