A Guy To Want.

One day, I’ll fall in love.
One day, someone will have my heart.
One day, where I'll always be happy.

I wasn’t asking much
Okay that’s a lie.
I wanted my Prince Charming.
I wanted someone who loved me
For me.

I wanted a guy to hold my hand and never let go,
Just because he wants to.
I wanted a guy to kiss me and smile so wide,
That my heart would race.

I wanted a guy to murmur pet names to me
I wanted a guy to tuck my hair behind my ears and say how adorable I looked.
I wanted a guy to cuddle me even when I couldn’t be bothered to look nice.
I wanted a guy to understand me.
I wanted a guy who I could share anything with.

I wanted a guy to protect me
So if I came crying,
He’d demand who he was punching first.
I wanted a guy to care to for me.

I wanted a guy to get jealous, but not too much.
Just a bit, so if some other guy happened to look at me.
My guy, would glare back and make a point that I was his.
And His alone.

I wanted everything, I wanted to be selfish.
I didn’t want to be the girl that always had the advice for her friends boyfriends.
No, I wanted to be the girl that rang up my friends, angry and upset.
Because my guy and I had fallen out.

I wanted him to admit his mistakes.
I’ll admit mine too.
I want him to tell me things he’s never told anyone.
I wanted him to be the one I could spill my heart and dreams too.

I wanted him to text me just to say Hi and ask me how I was doing.
And that’s he’s thinking of me,
I wanted him to call me and talk to me on the phone for hours.
I wanted a guy to hold me close, and whisper sweet nothings.

I wanted to be a guy’s everything, where he wouldn’t be ashamed to have me.
I wanted a guy to have my heart.

It’s a lot to ask for, I know.
But I can dream, I can write how I feel.
I can pretend.

But you have to come to reality, that this guy that I want…
The guy that any girl would want
The guy that I could love till the world ended.

My guy, doesn’t exist.