Love, The Disappearing Girl (I Hope You Read This Before It Fades)

The feeling right before you choke,
Panic rises in your chest;
You could've avoided it without that gasp--
You look so good in blue.

An insomniac finally sleeps,
She's over you, baby.
She has been for weeks.
Don't you dare come crawling back to me.
Four AM and you're the only one awake;
Nobody wants to stay up for you.

Dropped yourself in the middle of the street,
Asphalt grabbing onto your clothes.
Headlights bright,
But you move. You always do.
You don't have the fucking guts.

I would leave you,
If only I knew how.
But darling,
Can't you see me slipping away?
I'd rather spend the night with a bottle of pills;
Anything to get away from you.
Fucking you.

You know I stand on the roof,
Of this fucking hotel,
Wondering if I could say a dramatic goodbye,
Or if I can't wait a second longer.
Broken bones from broken homes,
I'm going to do it.

I hope you get this.
I scribbled it on this wall;
Because I know you walk by here.
Please understand.

- the disappearing girl