Sick of Tryin

I'm sick of Trying,
Trying to please you,
Trying to make you happy,
Trying not to lash out in anger at you;
Letting all my feelings about you come out.

I'm tired of Crying.
Crying everytime you anger me,
Crying everytime you yell at me,
Crying because you don't understand me,
Crying because you don't realize that this is my life not yours.

Yeah I'm Smiling,
Smiling because of my friends,
Smiling because unlike you there are people that care about me,
Smiling because there is someone that appreciates me,
Smiling because someone actually loves me

But inside I'm dieing.
Dieing everytime my name flows from your mouth,
Dieing everytime you scream and shout over nothing,
Dieing because I let everything you do get to me,
Dieing because I haven't learned how to tell you to back off.

I'm sick of trying to make you happy,
It's my turn to be happy.

Tired of Crying tears that aren't needed,
This time I'm not holding back.

Yeah I'm smiling because my friends,
They love to see me smile.

Inside I'm dieing,
Well not anymore.
This is my life and I'm going to live it that way