Our Eternity
Though you never were close to me
You've never left my side.
I long to struggle, protest against
But I'm too weak to fight.
The sharpest things don't disappear
Why do we laugh in suspence?
There is no joke, only fear
Of returning, creeping tense.
The wonderless seems fragile
What if you pushed it over the edge?
I feel it pulsing ever closer
Leaving a trail of dread.
How can darkness feel this way
I swear it never has before.
I'll pretend, I'll enjoy the silence
Although I wanted more.
You're tearing apart the pieces
That you've already ripped to shreds.
You crave my pain, worthless attention
Then sleep, dreamless, in your bed.
How I long to be forever blind
So I can't see how used I am.
Even then I'd still be oblivious
To your one and only plan.
I am forced to spend a life time
Beating only for the better.
It's merely dust, dry in shame
Holding the broken together.
Though I loath to say it
I am actually almost glad.
When I go missing, you will not miss
You are all I have.
You've never left my side.
I long to struggle, protest against
But I'm too weak to fight.
The sharpest things don't disappear
Why do we laugh in suspence?
There is no joke, only fear
Of returning, creeping tense.
The wonderless seems fragile
What if you pushed it over the edge?
I feel it pulsing ever closer
Leaving a trail of dread.
How can darkness feel this way
I swear it never has before.
I'll pretend, I'll enjoy the silence
Although I wanted more.
You're tearing apart the pieces
That you've already ripped to shreds.
You crave my pain, worthless attention
Then sleep, dreamless, in your bed.
How I long to be forever blind
So I can't see how used I am.
Even then I'd still be oblivious
To your one and only plan.
I am forced to spend a life time
Beating only for the better.
It's merely dust, dry in shame
Holding the broken together.
Though I loath to say it
I am actually almost glad.
When I go missing, you will not miss
You are all I have.