My Own Breathing

All I want is to feel that rush
I don’t know why
I don’t care how
Time stops in its tracks
A head on collision with a train
Throws me in the air
I shut down my mind
Heighten my senses
Rely on my instincts
That never seem to fail
The high builds a wall
Blocking the pain
Shoving away life
Hiding the fear
Shielding from negativity
When all I feel is my heart beating
All I hear is my own breathing
All I see is players, not people
And all I need is
For it to never stop
But it always does.