Beautifully Confided

No matter how bad it hurts,
Mom, you must look into me.
More deeply now than ever,
Descry the agony.
Don't just see it inhale it.
You deserve the hurt,
no matter how much you say sorry.
Through what you've put me through,
you deserve every inch of my pain.

Does it make you proud,
to know that i hate you?
Does it make you happy,
To know that i agonize every day,
When your so fucking blithe?
I did everything to just make you blissful!
And i did anything to just make you pleased!

And when I'm gone,
i hope you feel worthless and shameful!
Because when I'm dead,
I know i conducted something for me!
Not for you.

Now go on,
I hope you go to hell.
Look at me mommy,
You raised me to be this abyss.
The abyss of misery.

Thanks mom,
Let me say one more thing,
I want you to feel hated,
I want you to suffer.
Here's to you mom,
Go on and keep being the same old you.
Once your elderly you'll wonder why I'm gone.
Just read this,
It will show you what you did wrong.
Don't you feel pleased.
Bitch get at me, you worthless piece of shit.