Pain Free

My body twitches at the sight of it
Clawing at my face
Scratching at my arms
I’m doing anything
For a little self harm
I don’t want the razor
I don’t want the blade
I just want to feel
The pain wash away
Feelings I can’t explain
Are slowly pushing me
Am I going insane?
I could cut
It would be the easiest thing to do
But then I remembered
All that I told you
I really do want peace
And I really do want to be free
But sometimes words
Don’t mean anything
I have a choice
Will I fall back in line?
With the metal and crimson wine
Will I run the other way?
So that I might be happy someday
These choices are battling in my mind
And I can’t help but feel
Like I’m dying inside
I will not give in
I refuse to bleed
I’ll have to find another way
To be pain free