flashback to when.
2 months ago my life changed.
2 months ago they found out.
Back then.
Life was a bother.
I put on that fake smile.
We all know.
And hate.
I should have known.
My sister could see.
Every.
Cut.
She screamed.
OHMYGOD.
Are you a cutter.
In front of my grandmother.
My mother.
And father.
That was the day.
My life changed.
I begged and.
Pleaded.
Please no.
Don’t tell daddy.
I couldn’t deal with disappointing him.
A week later.
I was sitting in Jim’s office.
Putting words into my mouth.
Psychologist.
Back in my room.
2 months later.
The blanket of darkness.
Wraps me.
Warmth in the air.
Too much warmth.
So much it strangles me.
I need to escape.
This dark warmth.
Reaching for my razor.
I feel the release.
The dark shadows let go of their constant hold on me.
In that blade.
I took solstice.
Nothings changed.
And it never will.
2 months ago they found out.
Back then.
Life was a bother.
I put on that fake smile.
We all know.
And hate.
I should have known.
My sister could see.
Every.
Cut.
She screamed.
OHMYGOD.
Are you a cutter.
In front of my grandmother.
My mother.
And father.
That was the day.
My life changed.
I begged and.
Pleaded.
Please no.
Don’t tell daddy.
I couldn’t deal with disappointing him.
A week later.
I was sitting in Jim’s office.
Putting words into my mouth.
Psychologist.
Back in my room.
2 months later.
The blanket of darkness.
Wraps me.
Warmth in the air.
Too much warmth.
So much it strangles me.
I need to escape.
This dark warmth.
Reaching for my razor.
I feel the release.
The dark shadows let go of their constant hold on me.
In that blade.
I took solstice.
Nothings changed.
And it never will.