Swallowing Razorblades

I cant tell you i'm ok because when i try to breathe it feels like i'm swalling razorblades.
I feel all my weakness coming around.
They're sick of hiding under all the lies.
I try to tell myself its going to be alright but i just feel so empty inside and my body cant take it.
I feel so cold but i'm still alive.
I wish they could show me how to end all this.
I dont think they want to gine me another try.
My hands are shaking from all the neves coming out.
I cant tell the differnce fromt he fear or pain in my eyes.
All i want to do is scream help.
I know they think i'm a loser.
I'm so far away that i cant get the strength to pull yself back to reality.
All my empty thoughts fill my eras and all my pain fills my heart.
All my desires are filling my body.
I dont think i have any reasons to stay and play house.
I want to be here but someting is telling me this place is to strange.
I dont understand why my thoughts aren't clear.
I'm try to breathe in but its killing me slowly.
I know i havent done the best i could but just wich me well and let me go.