Please don't kiss me

It was a normal day.
But she felt somehow,
that something was different and it was clear to her.
Something had happened.
He never looked at her so strange.
They went into her room, cuddles as always.
But then he wanted more.
She felt so empty and abandoned.
She had loved him but she didn't want to hate him.
He took what he needed. He has used her.

Dirty, lied to and cheated on her love.
She could not understand it at all – it would happen again.
She couldn't tell anyone what she had to bear silently.
Had to promise him that she would never break the secret.
She has never wanted this, but then she made it.
and she has only thought:
please please please please don't kiss me.

He had promised her, it will never happen again.
It will be like it was before, but then he was there again.
This expression in his eyes.
What should she believe in?
She wanted out from her body, couldn't feel herself anymore.
But he didn't stopped to cut off her air.
It was like a nightmare, but it was not a dream. She was awake.
She wanted to fight but she was too weak.
She blamed herself.
Believed it.
What had she done? What drove her into this madness?

At night there came the fear.
She believed to float.
She saw herself from top and she did not want to live anymore.
She wanted to replace it, to forget it.
But it had deeply eaten into her soul.
She felt alone, felt so small.
When would it be over?
It took long to break the silence.
Because it was hard to speak about it.

She has had no courage.
Then she has done it
and now she knows that she has no guilt for it.
She was still small - YOU ARE THE PIG!