no regrets

I wonder if you'd believe me if I died.
Swallow my words.
Hear my thoughts.
Conjure the depth of my heart.

You'll never know how I feel.
I won't ever tell you.
You'll never know what hurts me.
I won't ever tell you.
You'll never see me cry again.
I won't let you.
You'll never be permitted into my thoughts.
I won't let you.

I wonder if you'd believe me if I died.
Swallow my words.
Hear my thoughts.
Conjure the depth of my heart.

See what you've done?
You conniving bastard.
See my face?
Covered in tears.
See these hands?
Stained in blood.
See my regret?
It's nonexistent.