Traitor

I know they can see right through me
My strong barrier is deteriorating
Their sneers in the halls
Makes my pulse speed
The anxiety bubbles up
Having to stare
At these judging eyes
All for the fact that I
Am different.
Call me crazy
But these voices
Keep me from doing worse
Oh, so much worse...
These cuts
Are not by my own hands
But by the amused expression on your face
My once called "close friend"
The leader of my foul enemies

"TRAITOR"
I wanted to scream.
I envy the life you have.
I want to explode your happy parade
And have everyone find out
I know your darkest secrets!
You've deceived me from the beginning
The frozen smiles
The all too positive outlook
And the twisted plots...
You were planning
All along to reach the top
Of this wicked food chain.
I'm called scum
But you know what?
I call you the stain of black ink
On my once cleansed body
My once pure soul
Is pure disaster.

"Can you keep a secret?"
The one question that seems
Not to register in your brain.
This bond we have is tainted love.
Uncontrolled loathing from my life
That has escaped from my grasp...
It was the life you wanted
And hold now in spite of me!
We are mirror opposites
It took you months
To plot your scheme.
While I? Hah,
I can rip your reputation apart
In the matter of seconds.

You slipped up in your flawless plan.
You cracked after all that work.
For those few sweet hours,
I had your confidence and trust
You know I now hold your darkest secrets
I could drag you down to the bottom;
Haul your fake and tedious personality
To below your present high standards
I could tear you apart
Like you did to me!
But I am not you.
I exceed where you
seem to fall....