Venting

What would happen if the person you thought you knew turned out to be a complete stranger? The one who held you close and told you they loved you was only a phase? The boy I knew years ago; the funny, honest, and caring person turned out to be a lying, cheating, and apathetic hypocrite. He was my best friend who told stories with gaps. As much as I'd like to believe that what he said to me was true... I know in my heart that it was the past. He's changed into someone I no longer look up to, but now look down on. He's treated me as an object to be toyed with and tossed. Only now, he realizes how valuable I was. Because of him, I realize where I belong. He is one to desire those who he cannot grasp. It's too late to turn back. The boy who made me smile only brings me tears... I was never really happy even in our time together. I craved acceptance from him and it only made me more miserable, and still I could never reach his satisfactory. I was one who was told what I did wrong, but could never speak my feelings. I craved a relationship when our time passed... I craved him to come back to me, even when I told him to no longer speak to me... but with the stress and the ongoing need to be accepted gone... I Was happier. The boy who told me he hated cheaters, who was always open, kind, honest, and alive has become the very person he told me he despises... an unruly, immature brat who only cares about himself, his world, and his expectations. He constantly craves a relationship, trying to find the one... but he'll never find that person until he finds himself.