*** you

Will it ever be the same?. No. Never.
I never did follow through. How could I?
You never gave me a chance. To prove myself.
Dont you understand that i got scared. Yes? No?
I dont think you'll ever be able to get it through your fucking head.
You say i'm just a mistake. Fuck you. Take it back.
I thought you were my friend. Once more. What the fuck happened.
To you. To me. To us?
You lied. I believed. I dont know why.
You told me that you loved me. Lie. You said you would never forget me. Another lie.
I bleed out your name. I cried out all of your pain.
I screamed your name. I wanted you back. I dont believe that i lost you.
You told him that you dont even like me anymore.
Now why cant you say that to my face? He said you wouldnt because your nice.
Yea ok. Your nice? When the hell did that happen?
Do you remember the days when you used to hit me. You laughed. I told you to stop.
Did you? No. You just kept doing it. You did it till i'm cried out in pain.
I thoght i could forget that horrible past. Just throw it away.
I thought i could recover from that. I thought i could be who i used to be before it started.
Before i meet you. Before i fell in love with you. Before I held your hand. Before all of it.
I wanted to believe it could just fade. Into the dust. Go away.
At times i was shaking from the pain. I hated it. But i didnt want to leave you.
Yea i know its pretty fucked. I bleed frome thought of you leaving me alone.
I cried because i thought i'd lose you if i didnt say yes.
I kept your secrets. You never once kept mine.
So i'm saying fuck you for the last time.