If...

If I were pretty would you stay the night?
If I were funny would you laugh with me instead of at me?
If I were smart would you listen to me for once?
If I were a slut would you look at me and not be disgusted?
If I ate like a "normal" person would you stop looking at my bonez?
If I stopped cutting would you stop looking at me with pity in your eyes?
If I were these things would I be enough?
If I were different would i still have you?
If I were better would you have never done what you did?
Or is it just a lost cause?
To even hope?