Buried Treasure

confusion fills my head
as i look over at you
you're so close
so pretty
your hair glints gold
in the sunlight
neck exposed
right in front of me
such beautiful lips...

i can hardly control myself
my lips want so badly
to meet yours,
for me to put my arms around you,
and start at your soft neck,
then work my way up,
holding you tightly,
but
if i did
would you kiss me?
put your arms around me?
hold me tightly?

but
i cant
there are so many people around
i almost wonder
what they'd think
but
i already know

they'd think i was a freak,
a gay
and they'd be hateful
they could never accept me
for how i am

and what would you think?
what would u do?
would i loose you?
would it hurt your reputation?
i couldn't do that to you.

so, instead of giving in
to what i want to do
so badly
i turn away
and bury my feelings
to be uncovered one day
by the one and only
with the treasure map
to my heart