Two Sides of Me

When your crowded everyday and feel alone all the time.
I'm not going to lie it's hurts.
And when no one can hear your screams of help.
It makes you mad, sad, and it hurts you.
It hurts so much you just want to hit someone, scream but most of all cry because you think you can't tell anyone what your going through everyday and night.
I want to say "I'm here to catch you and hold you and tell you every thing will be all right now that i got you in my arms". but that would by lying and I'm not going to lie, I'm not going to be there all the time to save you from all the evil things out there that are trying to hurt you because i can't and it hurts me to know that.
But I'll try my fucking hardest to protect you.
Even though there's two sides of us, We're the same, just you feel all the pain and i feel nothing.
Well I feel two things, I feel afraid and then nothing.
i crawl in a ball, when our life is threaten and i let you get all the hits.
I'm a coward.
I'm not strong enough to stand up and wrap my arms around you and put a shield around us both so you wont get all the blows.
I hate myself for not keeping my head up and get what's coming to me.
Maybe that's why there's two sides of me,
because I'm scared of the unknown and what it will do to me,
That's why i hide and let you take it when it's known.
I'm so sorry i can't protect you from your biggest fears.
But i can't protect you from me or yourself and I'm truly sorry for that.
I will one day though.
When I'm strong enough to take it all.
Then you can rest.
But till then your my shield for all my fears and I'll lock myself up and hide deep inside.