Today
I smiled at you today
So you'd decide to stay
And think I have control over how I feel.
I cried with you today,
Acting all the way,
Crocodile tears that I never feel.
I begged for help today,
Pleaded to make it go away,
Terrified of what I never feel.
I hurt myself today,
To make myself feel pain,
To have some control over what I feel.
I pushed you all away
And his away the pain
So none of you would know that this is real.
I killed myself today,
Relishing the pain.
Now do you know that this is real?
So you'd decide to stay
And think I have control over how I feel.
I cried with you today,
Acting all the way,
Crocodile tears that I never feel.
I begged for help today,
Pleaded to make it go away,
Terrified of what I never feel.
I hurt myself today,
To make myself feel pain,
To have some control over what I feel.
I pushed you all away
And his away the pain
So none of you would know that this is real.
I killed myself today,
Relishing the pain.
Now do you know that this is real?
♠ ♠ ♠
This is about the same thing that made me write "Anything (You Want to Hear)"