Obsession

Blood red rivers etch their way
across the these weary hands today
The skin so dry, it begins to peel
You don't know the way I feel

Each thought, as haunting as a ghost
Sadness at least, Pain at most
Wanting to be normal, wanting to be sane
When this horrible nightmare runs through my vein

Each movement that I try to do
Makes me think back to you
The pain, an unwanted reminder
Of how you could of been so much kinder

All I wanted was a shoulder to cry on
But I told you and then you were gone
Unlike the thoughts that plague my mind
From my pain, you wish to be blind

I wish I could wash your memory away
Like I do to to my hands, every day
Until I no longer feel your touch
As my mind slips from my clutch

I am not sick, and I will be fine
But I fear that this is a sign
Not to tell, just to hide
My little obsession inside.