Waiting to be Free
These feelings that I hold back
Keep coming back to me
Like waves going to shore.
I'm tired of lying
Lying to everyone
Even to me.
It's gotten to the point
Where I don't even know
Where it is that I stand.
I just want to be free.
But how can I
When I am stuck
All the way behind
Pretending to be happy
Plastering on smiles to my face
To hide the tears
That I mask for the disappointment
That I have in my life
For letting it get so far
That I didn't even realize
What my life came to be.
My rope is growing thin
For I don't think
I can hold on any longer
To the life that everyone wants me
To Lead.
But how can I lead
When I can't even stand on my own
Two feet?
My mirror is shattered.
It represents me.
I am shattered all over the floor
Hoping one day my luck will change.
It's been more than seven years
That I have been married to the
Dark.
How can I bring fate to my terms?
No matter how hard I try
To piece my life together,
There is no way the scars will
Go away.
Fear contros my everyday being.
But how can it not when
There is no trust for me to seek?
You think you can pull me together?
I'd like to see you try.
I'm sure you won't succeed
Because you will see how screwed
Up my life came to be.
You will shrug me off
Like a fly on your shoulder.
And that's okay because
I am just another soul
Wandering around the world
With no where to go
Because the thing about me is
That I am no ordinary soul.
I am the soul that is a loss at
Words, life, and myslef to say the
Least.
And here I am exploring when I don't even know who
Lives inside of me anymore.
These feelings that I hold back
That keep coming back
Are the feelings that
Won't give up
Not until they find
What they are looking for.
The soull
That even I have failed to succeed.
But that is not what keeps me going.
No. It's the faith that I have
In them because if they do
Then maybe there is hope
Because then I will finally
Know what it is like to be
Free.
Forgetting my past and,
Leading me to the life
I deserve.
It's because of these feelings
That I am steady and alive.
Keep coming back to me
Like waves going to shore.
I'm tired of lying
Lying to everyone
Even to me.
It's gotten to the point
Where I don't even know
Where it is that I stand.
I just want to be free.
But how can I
When I am stuck
All the way behind
Pretending to be happy
Plastering on smiles to my face
To hide the tears
That I mask for the disappointment
That I have in my life
For letting it get so far
That I didn't even realize
What my life came to be.
My rope is growing thin
For I don't think
I can hold on any longer
To the life that everyone wants me
To Lead.
But how can I lead
When I can't even stand on my own
Two feet?
My mirror is shattered.
It represents me.
I am shattered all over the floor
Hoping one day my luck will change.
It's been more than seven years
That I have been married to the
Dark.
How can I bring fate to my terms?
No matter how hard I try
To piece my life together,
There is no way the scars will
Go away.
Fear contros my everyday being.
But how can it not when
There is no trust for me to seek?
You think you can pull me together?
I'd like to see you try.
I'm sure you won't succeed
Because you will see how screwed
Up my life came to be.
You will shrug me off
Like a fly on your shoulder.
And that's okay because
I am just another soul
Wandering around the world
With no where to go
Because the thing about me is
That I am no ordinary soul.
I am the soul that is a loss at
Words, life, and myslef to say the
Least.
And here I am exploring when I don't even know who
Lives inside of me anymore.
These feelings that I hold back
That keep coming back
Are the feelings that
Won't give up
Not until they find
What they are looking for.
The soull
That even I have failed to succeed.
But that is not what keeps me going.
No. It's the faith that I have
In them because if they do
Then maybe there is hope
Because then I will finally
Know what it is like to be
Free.
Forgetting my past and,
Leading me to the life
I deserve.
It's because of these feelings
That I am steady and alive.