Confliction

What do I do?
What should I choose?
What is the right way?

The goose bumps have begun crawling all over me
I need to work
I need to focus
but how can I?

This room is spinning to fast
Which way is up?
What do I want to do now?
This confusion is so overwheming

I can't handle this
but I need to do this
yet I just don't know
but I have to choose anyways!

the tears tear away my last sense of dignity
why is this such a hard choice?
it will change my life
but that shouldn't matter
I need to be strong