You, Him, and Me...
You used me.
For your own special need,
I loved you,
Yes I once had,
But you took my love,
My heart,
And torn them into piece,
You had no care,
I was just your toy.
I met another guy,
He treated me so well,
But you hated him,
Because you now loved me,
So I broke his heart,
Just for you,
I wanted to feel your love that I showed you,
But you stabbed my heart,
Tore it to a million pieces,
The left me to die.
I cried myself to sleep,
I tried finding happiness,
But all I found was sickness,
Sickness in my heart.
I became cold,
Unloving,
A horrible person,
But then I met him,
And I was happy.
Things started looking up,
I became a happy person,
Pleasant to be around,
A warm heart,
A glow that surrounded me wherever I went,
But you still lurked in the shadows,
Waiting to punish me for the bad I had done.
I had done nothing wrong,
I just found happiness,
But you hated seeing me happy,
Hated every guy I would be with,
You only wanted me to be happy with you,
But how could I be happy with you when you would hurt me,
Abuse me,
Take advantage of me,
Then say ‘I love you, my princess’
I wasn’t your princess!
I was your toy!
Someone you could mess with,
Someone you could easily forget about,
Someone you truly didn’t love.
Then I found out.
I found the truth.
But that didn’t help.
You still loved him and not me,
It hurt to admit,
I know the cold hard truth,
The very truth that hurt me so.
Now,
I like someone else,
Someone that will help me so much more,
Someone that cares for me,
That loves me.
Or so I hope.
But I truly do not know.
What if I’m not the one for him?
What if I just another girl to pass by?
What if...?
I cut myself deeply into my wrist,
Hoping to take the confusion away,
It only makes it worse,
I look away from the scars that lay on my arm,
These scars will never go away,
Will always be there,
To remind me,
How my heart was stolen,
Taken,
Squished,
Stretched,
Stabbed,
Then broken into a million pieces.
What have I done to myself?
What will I tell people when they start to notice?
My cat attacked my arm will only work so far.
What will I say when he says he doesn’t want me?
For your own special need,
I loved you,
Yes I once had,
But you took my love,
My heart,
And torn them into piece,
You had no care,
I was just your toy.
I met another guy,
He treated me so well,
But you hated him,
Because you now loved me,
So I broke his heart,
Just for you,
I wanted to feel your love that I showed you,
But you stabbed my heart,
Tore it to a million pieces,
The left me to die.
I cried myself to sleep,
I tried finding happiness,
But all I found was sickness,
Sickness in my heart.
I became cold,
Unloving,
A horrible person,
But then I met him,
And I was happy.
Things started looking up,
I became a happy person,
Pleasant to be around,
A warm heart,
A glow that surrounded me wherever I went,
But you still lurked in the shadows,
Waiting to punish me for the bad I had done.
I had done nothing wrong,
I just found happiness,
But you hated seeing me happy,
Hated every guy I would be with,
You only wanted me to be happy with you,
But how could I be happy with you when you would hurt me,
Abuse me,
Take advantage of me,
Then say ‘I love you, my princess’
I wasn’t your princess!
I was your toy!
Someone you could mess with,
Someone you could easily forget about,
Someone you truly didn’t love.
Then I found out.
I found the truth.
But that didn’t help.
You still loved him and not me,
It hurt to admit,
I know the cold hard truth,
The very truth that hurt me so.
Now,
I like someone else,
Someone that will help me so much more,
Someone that cares for me,
That loves me.
Or so I hope.
But I truly do not know.
What if I’m not the one for him?
What if I just another girl to pass by?
What if...?
I cut myself deeply into my wrist,
Hoping to take the confusion away,
It only makes it worse,
I look away from the scars that lay on my arm,
These scars will never go away,
Will always be there,
To remind me,
How my heart was stolen,
Taken,
Squished,
Stretched,
Stabbed,
Then broken into a million pieces.
What have I done to myself?
What will I tell people when they start to notice?
My cat attacked my arm will only work so far.
What will I say when he says he doesn’t want me?