Reprehensibly Tattered Heart

I saw you the other day,
But couldn't feel the same way,
I miss that feeling where I'd go berserk seeing you
Cause I know you would too,

I gotta learn to control these feelings around you now
Cause all that matters to you is her,
I will if that's what makes you happy, but how?

I can't forget the day we met,
On the footpath that seemed to connect
Maybe we're not meant to be,
Maybe its not destiny

Do you know how I feel?
Could I ever heal?
Do you feel the same way?
Why wouldn't you ever say?

I'm stupid enough to ask,
If you feel the same,
Cause I know you've changed
Would you have stayed if I asked?
It would have been a dream meant for us

I know you don't love me anymore
But you cant blame me,
I still love you the same
You never told me how you felt,
But excepted me to forget you,

How could I when your all I ever held?
How could you love her when I was all you ever saw,
Now you can't see anyone except her
It doesn't matter to you anymore how I feel
But I know I deserve all this...

After ignoring you was the best I could do,
To get over you when you still loved me,
Now I expect what you expected then,
I shouldn't have done that,
I guess I forgot you would heal,
But I would never, because I still love you,

Some things are just meant to be that way,
I know I sound selfish but,
One day, I wish you'd come back for me,
Make all your promises true, which I held you back from making,
Love me like I'm all you ever see,
Just like we used to be until I was forced to push you away,
Yes I admit.

It wasn't my fault from the start,
It was her,
That other girl everyone said you liked,
She said, along with everyone else you loved her,
How much more could I ask for when everyone answered it all?

So I did what I could to stop hurting my self further,
All I wanted then was to be over with you,
Because as they said, you loved her,
But when your friends told me you loved me not her,
I just couldn't bring myself to accept my dream coming true,
I was beyond confused,

Now I wish I had never pushed you away,
Please,
Just let me apologize if that's all I can do now,
And yet,
I'll always just want you,

Never will I be able to replace you,
The way you did for me,
Never will I love anyone else,
The way you do now,
Never will I regret your memories,
The way you do