what even is this?

Go ahead, pop that last pill
You've got me running still
It's not like anyone cares
Cause no one even shares
What it is that causes their pain
What causes their shame
What makes them feel unworthy like being dead
You know it's your fault so go ahead
I will not stand at your grave and weep you're not even there
You left me bare
Raw like a fresh wound
Wanting me to heal too soon
Not wanting the world to see
I couldn't fucking let them see