Am I A Fool

Am I a fool for loving again?
Am I a fool for bargaining again?
To put my heart on my sleeve...
And give it all to him...

I love him with a passion..
I love him with all my heart...
I love him till my heart stops beating and till the blood stops flowing....

Am I a fool for worrying so much?
I think I am..
I shouldn't worry so much,
Yet I do.
He's my life.
My soul.
My shelter..
I'd break without him...

He's promised to never cheat.
Never hurt me.
Never to lie,
Never to leave me...
I believe ever single word he says.

He's my one and only.
My heart and soul.
My life...
I can't breath a day without.
I can't see a day lived without him..
When your name pops up on my phone..
My heart skips a beat..
Whenever I hear you say my name,
It takes my breathe away..

My father left when I was three...
The one person I truly loved broke my heart.. Twice..
I thought I'd never get better.. I thought I could never be fixed...
I was depressed and suicidal..
I was on the edge of leaving this dark, cold place..
Then I found you...
You fixed me..
Fixed my shattered heart with duck tap and glue...

I still cry late at night..
I still have bad thoughts...
I'm not perfect..
I never will be..

I don't want to hurt you..
I can't stand to see you in pain..
I can't stand hurting you...

I've let you in...
You've let me in..
You're *nothing* like the rest..
You're *perfect*
And *amazing*...
I Love You...
And that shall *never* change...
I love you with all my heart Nathan...

So am I a fool...?