What to Do

I think to myself, "Do I really want to do this? Could I really do this to my family?"
Then I think,
And within a wink,
I don't think anymore about the question.
Yes I can do this to them,
They brought this on themselves.

But then there's my friends...
The ones who know I want to do this.
They know how badly I need this.
They would be devastated that I'm gone,
And yet happy I finally found peace.

That's it,
I've made up my mind,
I've run out of time,
And in this important decision,
I take the gun,
And just like that............