Never Waking Up

Sometimes I get this feeling within,
That this is not the end,
We're just about to begin
And if this is only the starting line
What would the race be like?

Sometimes I think I'm scared to fall asleep
In all honesty,
Fear has no mercy

The fear of never waking up,
It never lets me dream.
Unfortunate mistakes I've thought to be
A beautiful mess, as integrity has been lost in the autumn breeze
I couldn't ask for anything less

And you shouldn't be so negative to me,
Soon enough I'll think it's a normality

Sometimes I get this feeling within me,
It reminds me of falling down and not being able
To ever get up again
I didn't know it was far from shameful
And closer to fearless
It's courageous to think of an original way to do things,
The way you feel it should be done
I think selflessness, plays a role
In life and in dying
When I haven't even lived yet

Sometimes darkness never lets me dream
At times I get this horrible feeling within
In a blink, a swift turn
I hit the breaks
And it's all gone

And I don't think it's fair to steal
My moments from me