Killed the Joy

You made me happy
You made me smile
You made me think good thoughts for a while
You kept me laughing
You raised my morale
You saw me for myself
And nothing else
Everything was raw
True
Real
Out in the open
And now
I killed the joy somehow

Self sabotage
should've have been my name
In the first place
I like the place
I was in
my own kind of broken bliss

You made me stop
Whatever it was that I did
Wallow in self pity
And misery was such a disgusting bitch
The sky haunts me
Cackling
Making fun
I didn't want to
Run
I didn't want to
Run