I never thought

No home. No friends. No love.
I have you to blame.
I have just my bloody skin.
I have my little friend.
I have my razor blade attached to my wrist.
You have the guilt of a murder.
You took me for granted.
You fled the sight.
You couldn't handle the pain. The love. The trust.
You couldn't handle me.
You left the taste of cigarettes on my lips.
You once touch my pale skin.
You once said you would never vanish.
You held my hand through most of it.
You stood by my side when i wanted to die.
Now where are you? Honey where have you gone?
How many times did you say would could never leave my side?
How many promise did you break?
Honey, I thought i loved you.
I thought you would never turn your back on me.
I htought you could never make me cry.
I never thought you would die.