This Can't Be Right

She asked,
Hey, how are you?
Is Everything alright?
I couldn't help but say,
Yeah, everything's fine.....

But she's been gone for a while,
So shouldn't I be smiling?
Instead I'm crying,
Because I'm finally realizing
That despite me trying,
Inside I'm really dying.
My life has been hell
And all I feel is pain,
I swear that I can and never will
Feel happy again.

I've been told to get over it,
I just can't handle this shit.
Is there something that I missed?
Oh yeah, that's you,
But what can I do?
I'm at least hoping,
That you are missing me too.

But you left
And left me behind.
There's something
About that, that just isn't right.
And for the longest time,
I've always wondered why,
Why I would even try,
To let go and
Finally say goodbye.
Look at me,
I'm actually trying to smile. :/