50

50 is the number of pencils broken for you

50 weeks is how long you have dated her

50 is the number of tears I cry

50 looks made your way

50 jelly beans I have shared with you

50 kisses I've seen you share

50 words shared a month

50 shared seconds

50 is the number of times you touch her lap

50 is the number of songs that remind me of you

50 is the amount of years i want to spend with you

50 times I cringe from a broken heart

50 imginary guns held to my head

50 holes punched into my walls

50 pounds lost for you

50 slits on my wrists

...but only 1 killed