Nerve Endings

I have not once
had a tear shed from
my hazel eyes
that was caused by unbearable
pain from my own body, my own being

I have not cried
when I was sent with sirens whirling around
to an ER
I have not cried
when I was bleeding from my wrist

It is my belief that
nerve endings have no connection
none at all
to the hurt of our hearts

I look down at you
and your blood stained lips
and remember this
now seeing the pain
on your face hurts me more
than my own blood sputtering out my mouth
hurts me more than anything in the world

seeing you in pain
gives me heart ache
makes my eyes moisten
I will miss you