With Every Word

She brings a question
And you bring it around back to me
When I had nothing to do with it
Why can't you just let it be?

With every word you say
My heart sinks a little deeper
I die a little more
I shrink a little smaller

With every word you've said
You imply I do you wrong
You imply I don't listen to you
But I do listen, you just don't know it

With ever word you'll say
You'll think I'm incompetent
You'll think I don't care
But really it's you who doesn't care

When I try to talk to you
You shut me out
You make me feel like nothing
Everything to you is nothing

I can't come talk to you when I need you
But I listen to your every word
I process everything you say 100 times over
But still you think I'm useless

You say I'm a good kid
But I know how you feel
I know what you think of me
I know what you think of all of us

You can't deny it though
That I've been trying to do right
That I've been trying to be better
That I've been trying to be a good son

I've been trying to be a good big brother
I've been trying to be a good role model
For her, for the one unborn
For everyone in my generation

But dad, you just won't fucking listen
You just don't fucking care
I've seen you at your worst
But I know you wouldn't dare

With every word you've said to me
And every word you will
I know that you love me, I do
I hope your thoughts don't stand still

So you can look past the black
So you can look past the grades
So you can look past everything I've done
And see that my being slowly fades

I appreciate what you've done for me
I could never pay you back
But one day I know you'll see
That my soul has faded to black