I'm only a child

You said that you would take care of me when I was born,

You said that you would take me t the doctors when I was very ill,

But I guess that you were wrong.

Because instead of taking care of me,

You abused me till I was black and blue.

Instead of taking me to the doctors, like a real parent should,

My fevers, my colds, and my headaches worsened over time again and again,

While you just sat there in that same old, smelly, rotten chair and watched the news and the games that came on that night.

You told me constantly to never, in my entire life, take any kind of drug

Or even smoke,

But as I looked around the house even more, all I saw were illegal drugs,

Like pot and weed just to name a few, and also 20 different packs of cigarettes.

I told you before a thousand times a day,

I'm only a child

That needs to be loved, to be taken care of,

And to have a responsible parent that would look after me.

But I guess I got stuck with the lazy, doesn't have a care in the world type of parent.

That needs reminding about just everyday that,

I'm only a child

But I can perfectly see that,

No matter how many times I tried to get your attention,

You would just stare at me

For a few minutes, getting my hopes up,

And then just push or block me off to the side.

Why can't you see through that thick head of yours that I'm only a child?

All my friends have parents that care for them,

But what do I have,

I have a lazy bum that just sits day in and day out as my parent.

When all my friends invite me to their houses to have fun and act like children,

They ask me if that tomorrow if they coming over my house,

But I tell them lie after freaking lie,

Like its being remodeled, the carpets being cleaned from today till next week.

You keep making me come up with all these other lies that I have to tell, just so that my friends and other people won't see the parent that I had to get stuck with.

I told you before a thousand times a day,

I'm only a child.

But I guess that you never heard a damn thing that comes out of my mouth each freaking day,

Because you hardly do anything to prove me wrong,

That you really are not such a lazy bum after all,

But that would be assaulting you.

You never do anything to help around the house, but make it look like a mess again, right after I had cleaned it.

You tell me to be the person that God wants me to be, which I am, so I thank you for that advice.

But that still doesn't change the subject, that you don't do anything at all.

I even remember the old days when you used to go to work, but that is exact what they are, the old days.

I have been telling you since I knew how to speaking from a little kid to a mature teenager,

That I'm only a child

I've been telling you this a thousand times a day,

Who needs to be loved, to be taken care of?

And to have a responsible parent that would look after me.

But I guess I got stuck with the lazy, doesn't have a care in the world type of parent.

That needs reminding about just everyday that,

I'm only a child.

When I couldn't figure things out for myself

I went to you for help, but you just looked at me

And said "What the hell do you want now, you piece of nothingness."

After that, I ran back up to my room and cried till all my tears were gone and I could cry no more.

All my life I had wished for a better parent, but it seems that all my wishing was for nothing, because I still remained in your rotten household.

I've been telling you all my life, ever since I was born to when I turned 19

That I'm only a child

And a child, I no longer am.

I finally have the freedom to do as I please,

And inside this heart of mine, I'm jumping with joy,

Knowing that now I won't have to live with you anymore.

Now, I can finally stop telling you from day in to day out,

That I'm only child, who has grown out of her rotten shell,

And her rotten home, where her lazy, careless parent did nothing for her.

I can now say that I'm no longer a child, but deep inside my heart

I know that I still am in your dark, hatred, lazy black eyes

That just looked at me all the time,

And did nothing whatsoever to help me before I left the house

That I had known for so long.

But I don't care, because now instead of telling my friends that they can't come over my house with the thousand excuses of why,

I can finally invite my friends into my collage dorm.

Now I can finally say that with all my heart

As I look over you dead body that had withered away because of having built up stress locked deep inside and hidden away from all to see and from all those drugs and illegal things in your house

That I'm only a child

That needs to be loved, to be taken care of,

And to have a responsible parent that would look after me.

But I guess I got stuck with the lazy, doesn't have a care in the world type of parent.

That needs reminding about just everyday that,

I'm only a child,

But that was the old me, the one that hated the life

That I lived, but now that I'm older and have matured

And with a family of my own

With a husband that loves me and can see the strength of the hardships that I had to endure over my age as a kid,

And with your two grandchildren, who only saw their grandfather only three times a day.

I have been telling you since I knew how to speaking from a little kid to a mature teenager and to a young adult with a family of her own

That I'm only a child

I've been telling you this a thousand times a day,

Who needs to be loved, to be taken care of?

And to have a responsible parent that would look after me.

But I guess I got stuck with the lazy, doesn't have a care in the world type of parent.

That needs reminding about just everyday that,

I'm only a child.